old phone phylogeny


scientific classification
kingdom: mobilia
phylum: samsunga
class: flipa
order: grayscalaga
suborder: bluelightaga
family: heavynieus
genus: ugly
species: brick
circa 2001

does anyone remember these? these phones, which were around when i was 11 years old, had black and white screens. whenever you touched a button, the screen lit up in a, actually, rather aesthetically pleasing blue. menus are a mess and sending text messages with the clearly ancient t9 can be quite strenuous, but when you have graphic intensive games such as push push and fly ribbon and spider hunter pre-installed, who cares? did i mention its solid feel and soft silver sheen? 

this, my friend, is a true piece of work. one that i have been using because verizon wouldn't give me a new glyde. not that i wanted one anyways, but it sure beats this fossil. well, july 12th, or sometime, verizon's releasing the new blackberry tour.

 i'm a big boy now. 

the san diego county fair is horrible

Jillian

have you gone to the fair yet?

or are you above such things?

10:53pmPeter

i hate the fair

are you planning on going?

10:53pmJillian

i thought you might haha.

it doesn't seem like it would fit into your picky life.

i haven't gone to the fair in 4 years

10:54pmPeter

good

it sucks

it makes you sick

10:55pmJillian

hahah it sounds like you had a bad experience

10:55pmPeter

it was horrible

i felt like crap

and my glasses broke

and the year before that

my glasses got chipped

the fair is death

10:56pmJillian

awww that's so sad!!

hahaha i guess that gives you good reason to hate it

10:57pmPeter

it is a legit excuse

10:57pmJillian

it really is.

broken glasses are nothing to sniff at.

10:58pmPeter

or broken hearts

10:58pmJillian

oh.. you didn't get your heart broken at the fair too did you?!

10:58pmPeter

no

but that would have made the story that much better


why do people work out


today i went to the gym. what makes guys want to work out? let's examine the possible choices. 

1. chicks. chicks dig guns. and by guns i mean muscles. which you can only get, in this day and age, in a gym. so check off that one. 
2. bros. they want to impress the bros. kind of falls in line with the whole macho deal. 
3. the feel good factor. they genuinely like working out because it makes them feel good. which is so foreign to me, but okay. that's cool i guess. 
4. occupation. they need to be ripped because they work construction. or anything that involves heavy machinery. maybe ups worker. or maybe a strongman competitor .
5. vanity. they like to look in the mirror. if you don't work out, there's really not much to look at. i guess skeletal structure, but that gets boring after a while, doesn't it?
6. heroes. maybe there is someone you look up to that is ripped and so you must also become ripped because you must be just like your hero. 
7. sports. because you want to be faster or stronger than the opponent. why can't we be friends.
8. for shits and giggles. because, you know, just for the hell of it. one word: arnold. 

if you know me, you'll know that i definitely fall into the lower quadrant of the muscle/weight class. i'm of average height but on the thinner side, and for the last 5 years, people have been telling me to work out. i never really understood why. why would i sacrifice hours a week pushing and pulling on things that make loud clanking noises and make my body sore afterwards? it really didn't compute; i was perfectly happy skating around on my sector nine mini for "exercise."

i just didn't really get why guys were so hyped about working out. "let's work out, bro!" and "yeah man, i'm so stoked to hit the gym" were very foreign phrases to me. i mean, everyone around me said it. it just seemed so stupid to me. why waste time doing all that when i could be designing a shirt or scheming some plan? you know... useful things. 

well, come to it, this summer my friends and i convinced ourselves that we would help each other get ripped--well, them helping me out more then me them, but who's checking. so i'm signing up for a membership at the local y and i've been pretty dedicated in going. i try and do the benchpress a lot, which i feel like a complete idiot on because i can bench the bar and 10lbs. but with my friends there and all, it's not too bad. 

i can't say i like working out, but it does help me get bigger and i enjoy that. so i suppose indirectly i enjoy working out. but i don't ever think i can become like arnold. if you watch that video i linked to, which is kind of explicit, i may add, you will see the opposite of me, someone who loves working out so much that he,... well you'll see.  

here's the reason i work out. 

9. future occupation. if i ever do surgery, i'll have to pull on heavy retractors, to open up the chest to operate on, for hours. i'd rather not make a fool of myself and start shaking while pulling on them. that's really the only reason. 

okay fine. maybe also number 1. 

this is how it should be


this past spring, i somehow managed to win the national geographic film + psa contest for a psa i made focusing on conservation and togetherness. on top of winning a hefty sum of money, natgeo kindly flew me out to dc for 3 days to attend their explorers symposium. it's a private event so i was pretty stoked about the whole deal. ballard, the guy who found the titanic was there as well as countless other scientists, who gave talks about their research. it was all exciting and whatnot. 

the thing that i took back the most from this all was not the presentations but the transportation. sad, i know, but read on and i'll explain. to take me from the airport to the hotel and back as well as back to school from the airport, i had a chauffeur. they wore dark suits and took my bags and stashed them away into the trunks of their cars and then held the passenger seat door open for me. as i sat there in the spacious back seats, with the morning news and beverages stashed into the compartments, i felt the feeling, "this is how it should be." 

it's probably the same feeling that slave owners felt while watching their servants and slaves work the fields while reclining, sipping some cool tea. it could very well be the same feeling a company owner feels as we walks by the desks of his employees. i felt like i had substantial power. i felt like i was someone. it's this feeling, i suppose, that lead men to have big egos and little empathy, something i wish not to have. but sitting in the backseat of those cars, i felt accomplished...which is bullshit because i got it all for a 30 second psa, but you get the point. it feels nice to have someone open the door for you, drive you around, carry your bags for you. 

the guy who drove me around dc talked to me as he drove. he talked about the armenian genocide and how it wasn't covered in american schools. he talked about this company that he joined that he hoped would make him financially secure within a couple of years. he talked about north korea and the possibility of a third world war. he talked about a number of things, but one of the most significant things he told me was, you don't want this job. study. 

i'm sure we've all heard this countless times. this guy realized his own shortcoming and was warning me. i wish him all the best in his business venture. 

kumon sucks: a retrospective

once upon a time, i had a blog with a fair bit of traffic. one of my most popular posts was kumon sucks about how, exactly, kumon sucks. let me continue.

for those of you that don't know, kumon is this program imported from japan that has spread worldwide like a stage 6 pandemic. it must've come here before 10 years ago because when i was 7 or 8 it was spreading from city to city. basically, it's this academic program where one can study english, japanese, or math through these packets. these packets have multiple problems on them. the kumon center will give you a number of these packets and it's homework. the next week when you go back to kumon, you turn in the ones that you finished the prior week and get back the packets that you did before, all graded. you have to correct the mistakes you made and then turn them back in, as well as get a whole new week's worth of packets.

see nothing wrong with this? on paper, it's quite simple and straightforward. however, these corrections start to add up and it becomes grueling to correct all of the corrections. i mean, okay, fine, if you had done all the questions right in the first place, you wouldn't have to correct them. true. however, the problem lies in the amount of problems. there are so many problems in a packet. so many. 

this isn't an average school homework assignment. these kumon packets have so many problems on a homework packet that are almost exactly the same. referring to the mathematics that they have, they have pages full of the exact same math problem, only with different numbers and variables substituted. this makes the whole process completely boring, completely rote, and completely brutish. 

doing the same problem, essentially, over and over will help you learn; i completely agree. however is this really the way that students should learn? is rote memorization the premiere way to grasp a concept? or is it more learning how and why the problem works? doing those problems, one after another, the prior problem exactly like the one after it, was hell. of course there would multiple corrections to be made on the previous week's packets: the student gets so bored with doing the same problem that their mind wanders off. through the exact mechanism that kumon tries to succeed, it fails. 

kumon is incredibly devious in it's educational manipulation and business strategy. kumon is based on the premise that you cannot learn without being firmly planted in the basics. there is nothing wrong with that statement, however, kumon uses that belief to keep students in the kumon program longer, allowing it to milk more and more money out of the student. how? they put you at a level lower than you actually deserve. while i was in algebra 2 in freshman year of high school, kumon placed me at a pre-algebra level, saying that i wasn't solid in it. they're statement was further supported by my numerous mistakes on the pre-algebra homework i was assigned--homework that i didn't bother to try on because of the mind-numbing uselessness of it all. by keeping me at a lower level, they hoped that i would stay in the program longer. 

the kumon director has the only say as to what level you should be at. no matter what you say, they will say, "you aren't solid in the basics" and put you at a level that they deem sufficient. and you pay for the shit. great business strategy. parents eat this shit up, too. the reason that parents enroll their kids in kumon in the first place is because 1.) they want their kids to "excel" in school or 2.) they want their kids to catch up to the rest of their classmates. kumon seems to be the answer because all you do is sit around and do problems and more problems--time spent "studying" rather than on the computer. well parents, it's not time well spent. brute memorization is exactly that--for brutes. we're human beings. we don't have to be conditioned to learn how to do long division. we don't have to be conditioned to learn to solve for x. 

sure, you may argue that sometimes doing problems over and over is the way to learn things and that kumon is just following a traditional learning outline. that's fine. however, kumon needs to re-look at their content and see that all of their problems are essentially the exact same problem. this may get the kid a's in math. it sure as hell ain't gonna get the kid very far in conceptual mathematics or physics. again, also, kumon's business strategy is to keep the student in the program as long as they can. this needs to end. parents, and students, should have a say where they are placed. 

i went through kumon for quite a number of years. after going through almost all of the packets to complete a level, allowing me to progress to the next level of learning (i.e. algebra => geometry), the director made me retake the level again, saying that i missed questions, and because i missed a certain number of problems, i "didn't get it." this didn't happen once; it happened numerous times. again, i was bored out of my mind, being forced to do problems that were for students 3-4 grades below me. my parents didn't really care: they were all for the kumon strategy, as i'm sure most are. 

i ended up collecting the finished packets that i had finished correcting and using those as answer sheets for the redo packets that i got. i learned to re-number packets and just not do packets. i learned to manipulate the graders and manipulate the system. i learned to think that learning wasn't fun. i learned that the only point of learning is for a goal, for a grade, for an achievement. i learned that learning is always graded. i learned that learning is always compared to other's learning. i learned that learning is composed of rigid levels. 
 
eventually i reached the age of reason and quit. i feel bad for everyone who's still in. telling your parents is pretty useless. if you can't quit, i suggest befriending everyone else in the program and setting up a system where each person saves their finished corrected packets for each level and exchange it with other students in that level so that they can have the answers as well. maybe you could even make some cash off of selling the answers. 

educational manipulation answered by capitalism. capitalism. the answer to the world's problems. 

mochi ice cream balls

whoever thought up of mochi ice cream balls is a genius. have you had one? let me describe it to you.

there is this tasty doughy exterior that envelops an inner ball of icecream. the dough part is hard to describe--it's a chewy, stickyish, sweet dough not unlike cookie dough but more firm. there's a coating of flour on the outside so your fingers don't get sticky and gives it a nice texture. the ice cream inside is purely delectable. i'm not a huge ice cream person because my teeth get sensitive to cold quite easily but because of the dough wrapper part, i can preserve my teeth while eating ice cream. win win win.

it's summer now. summer of '09. this summer, for premeds, it is almost a necessity to get an internship or lab job of some sort. i do not have one. i have been busily emailing different scientists and researchers in my area which is really quite easy because san diego is bustling with research. really. come on. i have the grades. i have the sat score, if you still care about that. i have the extracurriculars. i have the awards. i don't understand. help me help you. gosh.

p.s. i realize i just sounded really arrogant. sorry. it happens.
p.s.s that previous p.s. made me sound even more of a douchebag.

i'll stop talking.

my new film


Keep Face: An Experimental Montage

I meant this film to be viewer interpreted, to a point. The title, the washing face montage, the internal monologue, and the ending quote are all supposed to create a final point. Hope it came across to you. 

Things that went wrong for filming. 
1.) Shot location was extremely restricted, couldn't use tripod, all handheld shots--ugh/horrible lighting
2.) Wrote internal monologue after primary photography
3.) Needed more extras

All in all, went well.